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*My classmates and I had an activity in Soc. ARts lab wherein we will share something that greatly influence our lives. We were also asked to make a write-up. Then, one of my classmate shared about what she learned in her COCC days and term as the Corps Commander in their school. In the last part of her sharing, something struck my head and made me laugh a little. Because of that, I asked for her rough draft and permission if i can blog this to my fs..Fortunately, she said yes..

Taong 2007, sumali ako sa COCC (Cadet Officer Candidate Course). Marami ang nag-udyok sa akin upang sumali. Unang-una na roon ay ang aking sarili. Yung tipong kakausapin mo ay mapapaluha na. Oo, totoo po ang lahat ng inyong naririnig. Siguro sadyang mahiyain lang talaga ako. Akala mo kung sinong Maria Clarang mahinhin. Isa na rin sa mga naging dahilan ay ang panghuhusga ng ibang tao at sinasabi sa akin na “Magq-quit ka lang naman dyan. Hindi mo kaya yan!” Yung mga katagang iyon ang nagpatibay at nagpatatag sa akin at doon ay nagsimula na ang aming training, doon nagsimula ang lahat ng pagpapahirap, mga karanasang sinisigawan ka. Kung hindi ka masasanay ay marahil umalis ka na lang. Meron pa ngang pagkakataon na dahil wala pa akong pambili ng prescribed shoes ay bigla ba anaman akong sinabihan ng isang superior officer ko na “Gusto mo bigyan kita ng piso. Bumili ka ng sapatos mo!” Noon pa man ay pinapangarap ko na na maging corps commander. Alam kong mahirap iyon pero sabi nga nila wala naman maganda na hindi mo pinaghihirapan. Marami akong natutunan sa pagsali dito. Unang-una na ang disiplina, ang pagkontrol sa sarili. Isa rin sa mga pinakamasaya kong karanasan ay ang mga drill na ginagawa namin, rapelling, firing kung saan ay nakakuha ako ng tropeyo at medalya. Ang aking commandant ang nagturo sa akin kung paano ang tamang paggamit ng baril. Nagd-duty din kami sa gabi…paggamit ng compass at mapa kapag naligaw ka… Isa pa sa mga lesson na natutunan ko ay ang word na ‘KAIZEN’ na ang ibig sabihin ay constantly improving yourself.Dahil minsan ay may mga pagkakamali din akong nagagawa, tinatanggap ko iyon as lessons learned sa buhay ko para hindi ko na maulit. Marami rin itinuro roon na ngayon ay pinag-aaralan natin sa Soc. Arts natin. Ang galing nga eh.. Tinuruan niya rin kami ng emergency rescue transfer (ERT) at first aid kaya mas lalo akong ginanahang mag-aral ng nursing. Naaalala ko pa nung una kami nagkausap ng isang lalaking importante sa buhay ko ngayon… dadhil nung practical namin sa pag-CPR. Dapat girl yung partner ko eh sabi nung babae ay nakikiliti daw siya so sabi nung proctor ko palitan mo ng lalaki mong batchmate (buddy)..so siya (lalaking importante) yung ipinalit ko. So naganap na ang dapat maganap,,ang pagc-CPR.Tama na ang kilig moments..at ayon nung mga panahon na naging officers na kami. Ako ang kanilang naging CC (corps commander) at ginalingan ko naman ang aking trabaho upang may mapatunayan sa sarili at sa ibang tao. At isa pa pala kailangan mong maging ehemplo ay modelo para maging isa kang magaling na leader nila. Pangit kasi yung kilala ka nila dahil sa position mo at hindi dahil sa mga tinuturo mo kung baga ang tawag sayo ay ‘hanger’. Ibig sabihin hindi ka naman karapat dapat. Nakasabit lang na parang palamuti lang ang uniform. Mas masarap ang pakiramdam ng pinaghirapan mo talaga kaysa doon sa pinaghirapan ng iba kung saan dun ka nakinabang…

*Tagalog na tagalog noh..hehe! walang pakelamanan.. I second the statement. Yung naka-pink na font color. I really want to share this to my’co’s., the officers o8o9. 

"They met..but the timing is not right.

He has his reasons and she has hers.

They’re both confused so they decided to part ways.

She wants him to wait..he said he will..whatever it takes.

Years later, they saw each other again..

..But too much time has passed..

..Too late to make it work.

Lesson?

People change so does the heart. Seize the moment.

For in truth…

NObody waits forever."

*a quote from one of my girlfriends in CEU.. haii. ang lungkot ng quote. ka-praning.*

1. Being questioned when you yourself don’t understand
2. Pretending to be innocent of what you know about
3. Trying to show you care
4. Trying to forget something you know you never will
5. Admitting you were wrong after you have been so insistent that you were right
6. Accepting the fact that you made a mistake
7. Debating with yourself
8. Knowing what’s wrong and what’s right
9. Growing up
10. Accepting the fact that some things are not meant to be
11. Trying to understand when you just can’t
12. Swallowing your pride when it has become too hard and too big to even gulp it down with water
13. Realizing that you have been tricked after you have given your whole trust
14. Realizing that you have taken the most important thing for granted
15. Parting with someone you’ve just learned to love
16. Letting GO of someone you’ve loved all your life
17. Losing someone you care deeply about
18. Saying sorry when you mean it where you stand
19. Knowing what is best and yet doing the exact opposite.
20. Bracing yourself for the worst kind of pain… & still hurting so much..
21. Loving someone too much and learning to love the pain that goes with it…that even if you learned to let go of the person… you still go on missing the pain you once felt.. and there it goes… you fall again
22. Denying to yourself that you’re falling… then finally you realize that indeed you have fallen when it’s too damn late and he or she got tired of waiting…
23. Being with someone else when the right one comes along
24. Knowing deep inside that you love someone yet you can’t say it out loud
25. Flashing your smile to someone u don’t want to see.
26. Bringing back the feeling you’ve learned to forget.
27. Showing that u care.
28. Finding a way to mend a broken heart.
29. Learning that someone u truly loves has used you.
30. Saying “I love you” when you mean it and when you don’t
31. Letting go of a person you’ve just learned to love.
32. Realizing that u love somebody you’ve just taken for granted.
33. Realizing that u love the person you’ve just broken up with
34. Waiting for promises you know she or he’ll never keep.
35. Saying your love for someone who loves somebody else.
36. Reminiscing the good times u shared together.
37. Shielding your heart to love somebody.
38. Trying to hide what u really feel.
39. Having a commitment with someone that u know would not last.
40. Trying to hide the tears that involuntarily fall from your eyes.
41. Sharing the one you love with someone else.
42. Loving a person too much.
43. Giving up someone u never thought of giving up.
44. Falling in love for the first time
45. Loving someone you haven’t seen
46. Having the right love at the wrong time.
47. Exerting effort to make the relationship last or work.
48. Not being appreciated when u know you’ve given your best.
49. Taking the risk to fall in love again.
50. Hiding your relationship from someone else.
51. Controlling your feelings to avoid hurting a friend
52. Choosing between 2 persons whom u really love.
53. Finding out that u can never have the person u just let go of back
54. Seeing the person u love with someone else
55. Learning that the person who claimed to have loved you so much never really cared
56. Seeing the one you love fall for someone else
57. Falling for your best friend and knowing that things can never be the same again
58. Learning to trust after you have been burned
59. Accepting that it was not meant to be
60. Smiling when all you want to do is cry
61. Falling and knowing that it can never be
62. Not being able to love the person who truly cares for you
63. Saying that you can never love a person the way he loves you
67. Hearing that he/she can never love you the way that you love her or him
68. Saying that you are over someone you still love
69. Being friends again and learning to let go of each other coz you both know it is better that way
70. Convincing one self that you are not in love when you know that you are
71. Having to let go because you know that he deserves someone else
72. Trying not to remember how perfect everything used to be
73. Being the last to know about something that concerns you most of all.

*i got this from aima’s multiply and she got this from ust’s multiply. haha! copy paste lan, dude! but i edited this..made some emphasis. yung mga nkafont color n green ung sapul.*